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In college you are never lonely.

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 08:24:16 GMT

If it's 4am, someone will be up in the study room.
If you're afraid of the dark, your roommate is there.
You have a routine of walking to class with a friend.
It's given that you and your best friend will eat meals together.
If she has other dinner plans, there's always someone you can call.
Or even that friend that you've always been meaning to hang out with but don't really mind if you don't.

Someone is always there.

I think I've felt overwhelmed by all these people that I haven't had time for myself.
Lately I've pretty much been a bum slash hermit.

It gives me room to think.

Saturday, July 04, 2009

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 07:35:18 GMT

18.

A nice year I would say.
I gambled at a casino, voted, went to a club, and bought spray paint.

Good life?

I wonder if it coincidentally occurred that being 18 and starting college happened at the same time.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 09:28:53 GMT

Goals:

- Art projects
- Catch up with OC lovelies
- Paint on my walls
- Write music
- Change my hair
- Try to get a job (not too motivated for this one)
- Improve relationship with parents
- Blog more.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 07:43:11 GMT

Do I expect too much out of people? Maybe that's why it's so hard for me to be close to anyone.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 10:45:01 GMT

Hey. I haven't seen you in a while.
Just letting you know that I'm still alive.
Oh and as a follow up of my last blog, I did meet all of my winter break goals.
Life was really good for some moment in time but as of now I am doing OK.
Overall I am truly happy with who I am, where I am, and who I will become.

...I think

Monday, December 15, 2008

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 15:00:45 GMT

Winter break goals:

- practice piano/theory
- paint
- organize/spice up my room
- self realization

Don't you just hate it when you think things are going well but in reality they are just plummeting to the ground. It's amazing how one can have so much faith in something and just have one over analyzed statement become its downfall. I suppose there wasn't much faith to begin with after all.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 08:29:52 GMT

Broadway Ave. in Downtown Los Angeles

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 08:42:49 GMT

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 19:18:32 GMT

So how is this new life?

I didn't think I would ever say it, but it is really fun!

My roommates are both 2nd year students and were roommates last year in the same exact room. Talk about third wheel?
At first I felt awkward with them because I'm not a big fan of "forced friendship" just because I will be living with them. However, I've gradually gotten to know them better and I have grown to really like them! I wanted to request a room change in a few weeks so I could live with Valerie but I'm afraid that I'll grow too close to them that I won't want to change. I'm still trying to fully adjust though.

As for privacy, it's not that bad. I suppose it's awkward when I'm doing my homework and my roommate's boyfriend comes over and they take a nap.. But the guy is really cool and they are respectful to me so it's okay.
And not that I watch porn or anything but I don't like it when people know what I'm doing online. Especially if it's something embarrassing like MySpace or writing a Xanga blog that might apply to them. And if my roommate Alex sees me procrastinating she will be disappointed and tell me to do my homework. :)
I also thought that by not having my parents around to tell me to sleep, I'd be staying up extremely late. I stayed up during 5 o'clock multiple times during Welcome Week because I was the only one in the room. But thanks to my roommate who sleeps early (compared to me) I am obligated to sleep as well, out of courtesy so that I wouldn't disturb her.

Although I am missing out on the complete college experience by not going to a UC, I've grown to accept it. Cal Poly Pomona is a commuter school, so there will be less programs and events. Oh and there's less money too. But I chose to go here to get an education of course. :)
Speaking of which, I am sooo excited to become an architect. I can't wait to work in a creative environment with people who have as much of a passion for design as I do, or maybe at least people who think they do. Last time in class there was a basic tutorial of how to use Photoshop.. what up

Oh and as for me going number two in public restrooms, that is going well. Everyone does it so whatevz. Someone put a stereo in there which helps too. :)

College is going well but what I hate about it is that I barely get to see ma boy fren. :(

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 05:09:06 GMT

What happens if you fall into a black hole.

So school starts soon.

9 days till move in.

A lot of people ask me if I'm excited. To be honest, I'm not very much so.
I'm afraid of change. Sometimes you might have poor judgment and by then it would be too late that you had it good all along.
I'm not saying that I don't want to dorm, because I've been looking forward to it for the the past few years. But the thought of it actually happening is frightening.
I regret those times when I was sooo ready to get out of here. "Only one and a half more years." What was the rush? I don't know.
I regret not having built a better relationship with my parents.
I regret letting my parents spoil me and not taking the initiative to do things on my own.

I'm not ready to move on.
I'm not ready to live in a new environment and be away from the comfort of living in my own home.

I'm not ready to grow up.

I'm not ready to go number two in public bathrooms all the time. Boy do I hate doing that.